Wow, what a challenge to narrow the things I know about diabetes down to 6:
First, I hate it. I hate what it has done to my little boys body. I hate the constant change.
Second, it is a constant worry. I leave him home I worry that he will have a low or high and I won't be there to take care of him. I worry that if I make him go everywhere with me or visa verse I go everywhere with him, I will rob him of a normal child hood. I worry that I check him to much or not enough. Lets just say I worry!!!
Third, diabetes causes sleep deprivation. I can not remember the last time Dalton and I slept through the night. I have only been away from him a few times at night, I remember on my latest trip to Idaho, I laid awake starring at the clock from 2:00 a.m. until 3 a.m. when I knew his dad would be getting up to do a BG check. I could not go back to sleep until I texted him and he responded with the BG number.
Fourth, no matter how much I plan or try to be prepared, I never am. I can feed Dalton the exact same lunch at the same exact time of day and never get the same results. I am not a gambling woman and I hate the fact that sometimes diabetes is a gambling game. My stakes are way to high and it is a game I never would want to loose.
Fifth, sorry but diabetes does affect the whole family. When your 4 year old baby walks up to you in Walmart and asks how many carbs are in this treat and can Dalton eat it? Enough said it affects the whole family.
Sixth, I am stealing this from a D-mom because it hit me hard and so many people don't realize it and don't realize what they are saying. INSULIN is not a CURE . . . It is a necessity to keep my boy alive.
Oh I could go on and on, but I am limited to six. Thanks for listening and thanks to all those who share, I sit and read through tear filled eyes, because I can relate and I feel your pain!
- ▼ November (7)